. this is what's new .
. this is where I've been .
. for those who did not notice . i disappeared . for those who did not notice . till they needed me . for those who were looking . they found me . for those who found me but did not recognize me . for those who did not recognize me always needed something from me . for those who needed something from me and gave nothing - keep walking keep scrolling keep working your workflow . for those who found me and did not recognize me yet recognized there was something missing - that was beyond my doing - I am so thankful . - Melissa Adylia Calasanz
the time line
the good . the bad . the unexpected . the hope and the healing . as well as . the returning . to first loves of movement . creativity . community . with a new awareness and appreciation for all that I am fortunate to be able to continue doing and pursuing .
CLIFF NOTES
March 2020 shut down . then a never ending all-hands-on-deck at KP . May 31, 2021 i witnessed a brutal murder of someone very dear, in front of my home . May 2022 i resigned from KP . October 2022 my brother was diagnosed with inoperable terminal cholangiocarcinoma . November 2022 I tore a muscle in my leg . December 2022 my brother died . 2023 I began to put the pieces of my mind and body back together again . September 2023 preparations for the murder trial began - by December 2023 the impact of ripping open the wounds of the murder allowed the flashbacks and sleepless nights to return . January 2024 the murder trial began . by March 2024 my testimony finally complete and the murder sentencing was finally done. now 2024 I am emerging once again . dancing . voicing . mentoring . writing . living more than existing . surprised I've made it this far . thankful for whatever remains . hopeful for the future
LONG STORY
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Melissa Adylia Calasanz
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You Buy The Shoes I Kick You With Them Podcast
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